Last night I went to a karaoke bar called “Lab” with my friend Wallwall. While it’s not an elaborate bar nor is it really a bar to cruise what Hong Kong has to offer, I had a good time chatting with Wallwall while at the same time staring into space and watching other people happily singing Chinese pop songs. There were quite a number of times where I simply drank my drinks and went into silent mode all while collecting my thoughts. Such a habit, it’s quite typical of me when I’m drinking- I like to be left alone to my thoughts. There was quite a lot on my mind after I had returned from Malaysia… new experiences, new friendships, new relationships and also confusion with logistics.

My mind swished from thought “a” to thought “b.” At one point I was thinking if I was going about things all wrong and perhaps what was to unfold was very much wrong. I was thinking if maybe I was being too selfish with my own feelings and just enjoying something that I wasn’t supposed to enjoy. In the end, my heart decided that it was best to keep an open mind and a simplistic approach. I think when I overthink a situation it suddenly becomes very complicated when it needn’t be.

What I’ve come to understand is this… I’ve gained some strength and positivity since coming back from Malaysia.
I’ve rediscovered my own self-worth.
I am not insignificant.
I am actually desirable.